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~NEVER GIVEN A CHANCE~
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2008-10-08T06:22:33.000Z
JILLIAN ALEXIS
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I am growing extremely fast,<br />
with the passing of each new day;<br />
I now have an audible Heartbeat,<br />
that is slow, the Doctors' all say.<br />
~<br />
My delicate hand's and feet,<br />
which once were only small buds;<br />
Have now sprouted fingers and toes,<br />
and I can suck my newly formed thumb.<br />
~<br />
It is nice and cozy in here right now,<br />
but soon Mommy’s Womb will expand;<br />
To meet the need's of her Embryo,<br />
the One in her Womb that I am.<br />
~<br />
But my Mommy doesn’t believe,<br />
that I am alive at all;<br />
For she can’t feel me moving…
I am growing extremely fast,<br />
with the passing of each new day;<br />
I now have an audible Heartbeat,<br />
that is slow, the Doctors' all say.<br />
~<br />
My delicate hand's and feet,<br />
which once were only small buds;<br />
Have now sprouted fingers and toes,<br />
and I can suck my newly formed thumb.<br />
~<br />
It is nice and cozy in here right now,<br />
but soon Mommy’s Womb will expand;<br />
To meet the need's of her Embryo,<br />
the One in her Womb that I am.<br />
~<br />
But my Mommy doesn’t believe,<br />
that I am alive at all;<br />
For she can’t feel me moving around,<br />
I am simply, much too small.<br />
~<br />
She went to the Doctors' last week,<br />
to determine how old that I am;<br />
The Ultra Sound showed I was ten weeks old,<br />
from the moment my life first began.<br />
~<br />
She asked about an Abortion,<br />
to rid herself of me;<br />
She want's to kill the person,<br />
whom God made me to be.<br />
~<br />
Her Doctor made an appointment,<br />
at an Abortion Clinic, nearby;<br />
Two more weeks of life in her Womb,<br />
before I'm suppose to die.<br />
~<br />
I wish she could have seen my tear's,<br />
or heard my one, small plea;<br />
"I don't want to die before I live,<br />
so give me a chance Mommy, please"?<br />
~<br />
But she couldn’t hear my cries for help,<br />
nor know how abandoned I felt;<br />
She wrote on her calendar in bold, black words,<br />
"Two weeks, I'll be back to myself".<br />
~<br />
I continued to grow very quickly,<br />
during those last, two frightening weeks;<br />
Then the day arrived when I'd lose my life,<br />
before I could even breathe.<br />
~<br />
I felt a searing pain,<br />
of which I could barely cope;<br />
As the Doctor carelessly scraped away,<br />
at my very last possible hope.<br />
~<br />
I am with God up in Heaven now,<br />
a Cherub who's looking down;<br />
Upon my Mother and the life she leads,<br />
her Abortion's I've simply lost count.<br />
~<br />
A small, sad tear always seems to form,<br />
in the corner of my blue eye's;<br />
Each time she visits that horrid place,<br />
and I watch as my Sibling's die..
~CRIMSON TEARS~
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2008-10-08T05:30:00.000Z
JILLIAN ALEXIS
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She reaches for the piece of glass,<br />
kept hidden, so no one will know;<br />
That she releases the sorrow within,<br />
by watching her Crimson Blood flow.<br />
~<br />
She places the glass against her wrist,<br />
as she softly begins to cry;<br />
She presses down as hard as she can,<br />
while her past replays in her mind.<br />
~<br />
“You’re a worthless, Human Being,<br />
a Failure, Ugly and Dumb”;<br />
Thus she slices through to her Artery's,<br />
until every finger is numb.<br />
~<br />
The Blood flowing from her Wrist,<br />
at last makes her feel satisfied;<br />
For…
She reaches for the piece of glass,<br />
kept hidden, so no one will know;<br />
That she releases the sorrow within,<br />
by watching her Crimson Blood flow.<br />
~<br />
She places the glass against her wrist,<br />
as she softly begins to cry;<br />
She presses down as hard as she can,<br />
while her past replays in her mind.<br />
~<br />
“You’re a worthless, Human Being,<br />
a Failure, Ugly and Dumb”;<br />
Thus she slices through to her Artery's,<br />
until every finger is numb.<br />
~<br />
The Blood flowing from her Wrist,<br />
at last makes her feel satisfied;<br />
For Cutting herself is the only thing,<br />
she’s certain that she can do right.<br />
<br />
<br />
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