I'm just venting. This blog has no point, except to get out of my mind, the latest adventure in what I'm calling, My AgentQuest.
Hmmm. I'm not sure what to make of my situation. I have done several rounds of edits and revisions to my manuscript, CHILD SUPPORT. I have queried agents and after only one partial and one full read, everyone has passed, mostly on the personalized letter alone.
Coming from a newspaper background, I have several people who read me. So, I reached out to one and asked her to read my book. I was quite nervous as she was the first person beyond these faceless agents to do so. My own mother wouldn't read it but that's not unusual, as my mother never reads me. She's busy not reading anything, so I don't hold it against her.
Aside from some grammatical missteps, which I know I'm prone to make, my reader's reaction was glorious. When she got to Chapter 7 she couldn't stop until Chapter 21, the midpoint. (She says it was only because she was exhausted and couldn't sit at the computer any longer.) The next time she went to read it, she read all the way to the end, Chapter 52.
Unlike the agents, she thought it was wonderful and the scenes and plot paid off. Like the agents, she loved the fast pace and the character development. She loved the entire book when the agents didn't.
A friend, who's a published author, told me not to change the manuscript based on the reaction of a passing agent. He said finding an agent is like finding a lover, it takes time and patience. Besides, when I find that elusive agent who loves my book as much as we do, THAT person will give me helpful editing notes that I should adhere to. Until then, I could be changing it all for naught. For now, I must plug along believing in what I have written.
In the short-term, I am grateful to my reader for reassuring me that it is, at least, possible to find one other person who loves my story as much as I do. Think I could convince her to agent it? I wish it was that easy.